Dance

Dancing for me is really the short cut to happinessss:) a big thanks to the bollywood tumkas,,,,the shimmmy belly swirl,,,,,,the high cadio zumbaaaaa,,,,,,and but offcourse thanks to britney,,,for,,,,, Hit me baby one more time!!!!!!!:))))))))lol after i watchd tat in my high school days,,

SEA OF DREAMS!!!!!

I sat by the sea, wondering where these waves come from! Eachwave that hit the rocky banks were so neatly timed that they almost appeared in symphony,at the hands of a master musician. She looked so calm yet so disturbed,it was as if she sang a melancholy from the distant past and sent it wraped in the winds that blew over her for centuries now. The warm/cold ,salty winds blew over my face too, Icant stop, but be amazed everytime i em by the sea,, I still remember when i was a liltle girl, During my summer holidays my maternal uncle took us cousins to the sea and we played till we felt tired and hungry, the excitement never seems to fade away,, even today i feel that hint of fun when i think of the sea.

Mumbai, well ! very few cities are blessed with the tropical climate and the sea that is so beautiful and full of mystries every time you happen to see her. But i dont see anyone of us being any thankful, Are we all over nature, or does the sea makes us feel very bored compared to the money hungry malls that have litterally taken over the social scene, when we were young i remember playing in the parks, getting bitten by ants , ouchhhh it sure was painfull , but my body amazed me by producing the antibodies and healing my wounds in no time. and ya who can forget the colourfull butterflies,,the flowers , the clear blue skies and the games involved so much pyhsical activities.

This is the age of virtual games ,,nothing wrong with that,,,,its just that it makes the kids today more VIRTUAL than REAL.

LIFES IN MY FACE!!!!!!

LIFES IN MY FACE, THE QUESTION IS CAN I FACE IT?

lifes looking into my face,
i am here bewildered by the strange empty feeling i behold in the abyssal depths of my self,,
look into my face and see my life,
the unfathomable grace with which i see it today and everyday,
wish i had peacocks hundred eyes to see this magnificant face of life,to spread them all at once and dance the dance of life,,
i em the silhouette as i look into your bright face,i reach to my soul through you,
i see faces around me everyday,pulsating with life,all in search,,,,,,,,
my mind is that at a resonating frequency , the pendulum of thoughts,
illusions( maya) is the essence of all the belief,then why does my mind fuels my thoughts,
i believe what i see,and when i close my eyes , i believe what i hear,

i believe in my senses.then how do i feel love?
i em a dreamer,its what i do with my eyes shut and open,
em i a stranger to my own eyes,?

my face in the mirror,says believe!
Believe as i em your illusion,close your eyes and see ,

all the answers await you.

Em i thinkin tooo much, or is it my hormones,playing me to believe,,,

in any case em goonna hit the sack as its late , and i feeeeeeeelllll sleeeepppppppY:)

HAPPY WRITING:)))))P::::)))

ETERNAL PAIN!!!!

I made a wish and you came true love:)

these are my last words for you.

I wished for more my heart felt sore;

I wished it would last, but you said its killing you fast;

I wished it would not be true,

i wished you would stop my heart bleed, but you said let it bleed more you deserve it;

I wished to die in your arms i said;

you went far away and then looked back only to see me lying cold;

my soul looking at you;

you said, wait! noo come back!!!!

I say i never went away , i em here waiting for my love,,,,,,, remember

All these years i said you are my life, I LOVE U:)

A GIRL ,,,,,A WOMAN!!

she had not felt the same a lot of times before, rejection was too confusing for her,she was a girl, her blooming smile and shiny eyes and a heart that meant harm to none! she wondered if it was her dream, then she thought to her self this cant be her dream ,as her dreams her dreams dont hurt!! she kept looking at his pictures a million times that night,those eyes were piercing her heart, oh she was so much in love with him.

Lifes not going to be the same she thought ,he had made her a woman, a strong confident,loving caring ,giving human being,his love had blossomed her life, then she closed her eyes only to see him so close, beautiful eyes and handsome self all made her feel the emotions again,,,,,,,,,,,,

I have known you ever since i laid my eyes on you. she said, i have known my self since then;

she knew her emotions were strong, she heard her heart beat in the silence under the darkblue night sky; she gazed at the stars and smiled to her self, this night would be in her memory for long time from here,,,,,,,

The night was dark and silent the breeze made her heart feel light! and the mood lit sky made her feel full of life, she wondered how the night had known that she was happy,she even doubted if god had planned this surprise for her,whether he had already rehearsed with the stars,the breeze the moon,sky and even the universe and conspired with all of them to cast their spell on her,,,,,,Life is the urge to let go sometimes,,,,,,and the very next moment a stronger urge to hold on,,,,,,,,and suddenly after a long thoughtfull night she noticed her watch that it was 5:30 earlymorning ,,,,the sky was getting brighter,,,,,,oops!!!! gottta wake up in 2 hours!!!!!!! she thought and before she knew she fell asleep ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

ADs

There are memorable ads and there are ads which gets us nostalgic, reminds us of doordarshan days:P ,,,i em sure everyone of us has a ton of memories,,,when prime time serials like

hum log,junoon,circus,fauji, buniyaad,malgudi days,nookad hooked us to the idiot box, remember how the whole family timed their dinner and bed time arround it,, then came the dish and now cable n future digital media is making us the masters with the remote, but back in early80s the defination of television wasvery different , every story told in the form of soaps and ADs were memorable as there was no clutter,, i still remember these ads ,,,,,,,,

The ericsson mobile phones ad "surprisingly smooth "where the old man goes to the lady on the next table to join her actually to find out tat she was talking on the phone,,,, surprises me how he did not notice the brick size phone then, ;p,,lol . Sad although bajaj closed down , but do u guys remember the hamara bajaj campaign of 1989,,,,"buland bharat ki buland tasveer" that was a catch ,,to those watching for owning their very own automobile . The 1990 MONTE CARLO "Love the season ,,for monte carlo" ad staring young nasir abdulla,,,,the song" nothings gonna change my love for u"(by Glen Mediros)which was being hummed all over the country,,,."HAR KUSHI MEIN RANG LAYIYE ASIAN PAINTS SE" the 1992 ASIAN PAINTS ,hmmm i love the smell of fresh paint,,,, these ads usually bring about the arrival of festivals on our country and our ad industry has worked its magic,,,,,,,"DUM LAGAKE HAISHA,ZOR LAGA KE HAISHA" starred young raj kumar hirani ,,,,,FEVICOL KA MAJBOOT JOD HAI TUTEGA NAHI,,,i used to love this ad the elephant used to fascinate me a lot,, even today fevicol makes some amazing ads love em still,,,,,COMPLAN,,, remember shahid kapoor and ayesha takiya,,cute na!!!!! I EM COMPLAN GIRL, I EM A COMPLAN BOY,AND WE LOVE OUR COMPLAN MUMMY,,,,,,,,, JALEBEEE!!:) cutie,, dhara ad of the 90s ,,, mai ghar jodh ke ja raha hu, and then ramu kaka comes in and gets the lilltle boy home,,,,,,OMG!!! love that one ,,,i go aaawwwwwwwhhhh when i see it till this day. kuch khas hai, khuch kas hai zindagi mein,kuch khas hai hum sabhi mein, cadburys,,the girl going crazy on the cricket pitch, music by shankar mahadevan,,,,hmmmmmm just a few to take us down the memory lane:)

HOPE

My soul is hurt,and i just cant try;

sometimes i blink to stop the tears flowby;

my heart says, no matter how hard i try,

it will beat to keep me alive,

oh so alive,oh so alive,

i never will let you die it says, till you really try,

then somewhere in my smile,it whispers and says something worthwhile;

there shall be HOPE, and this shall also passby.

AURORA

i glow at night ,and make patterns on my flight,

i em Aurora the godess of dawn , i stretch the sky miles and go on,

i reflect the lakes that i pass, i use all the colours i have got,

night sky that gives me the glow. i dance and play with the wind,

i fill the dark canvas, nice and slow,swirling and twirling along i go,

some call me the dance of sprirts,but they seldom know all the mystries i behold,

oh !! i em Aurora the Roman godess, i fly across the sky announcing the arrival of the sun.

LOVE

As i sail towards the end,
i send a message to gods above, to save us all and make us grow,
i ask him for comfort for those in pain,
and a chance to those who need it again,
i ask the hate to go in vain, let everyone see love again,
All i live for is love ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, love shall be my only gain:)....

FANTASY

Everyonce in a while i set on a trip to a place where all my dreams and wishes unite,and its called my very own fantasy land.
oh c'mon i know everyone has one!!!
Is'nt it fun??????
Dont we all try to live our fantasies??? For me Fantasising about my future, is one of my favourite pastimes,For me it brings in tremendous excitement about life : its logical;its anarchic;it sums up all the tantalising dreams of changing and rocking my world.

DREAMS

I DREAM EVERY NIGHT!!!!! Dreams , are they what we wish for? or was it some thought that was in hide in the layers of my subconsious mind.Sometimes i even wonder do we sleep to dream???? I toss again and see the same dream continuing, and turn to find the same dream waiting for me , my whole night passes dreaming, Its strange ,how even if i die in mydreams i em alive the next morning,,,and its tough to see someone you want to be alive is gone even if you are awake, I sometimes strongly believe that our dreams are the reflections of our lives,soo many thoughts crossing our mind all the day ,so articulatly woven and delicatly tangled, yet every thought makes sense, and these very same thoughts ,wishes, feelings,emotions we experiance during the day manifests into something mysterious ,sometimes even fueling our fears and turning them into a night mare,
How do you see yourself in a dream, also is a interesting phenomenon.For an instance if i em very low the whole day then in my dreams i see my self running away from issues or coaxing and cajoleing my self to think about it and mourn,dreams in short intreprete difference bettween,what or who we are!!!what or who we want to be!!!!. I see it like brainstorming session within myself, and the result offcourse quick road.

In my dreams, i travel a thousand mile,,i smile till i die,,,i believe that i em a child,,,i dream of living a lovely life,,,i spread my wings and fly,,,i believe my path upon which i walk,,,,i speak my mind,,i love till i drop,,, i sing a melody so loud,,,i em never a fool,,,, i believe i am the princess of the far away land,,,,,i allow my mind to freely be,to fly like a frizbee,,,,,,i gaze at the night sky like a child,,,, i keep searching for answers everywhere,,,,,,i sleep in the warmth of her arms,,,,mistakes i never make,,,,i have an attitude that no ones got,,,,,and then i wake up;
to find my life:) just like dreams i always saw.

FEAR

Having gone through my 25 years of existance,i have always wondered if i was the only one feeling the pain,feeling the loneliness inside me as if i have been pierced a hundred times and all i can do is feel the pain,an emptiness that only leads to more and more darkness.The concoction of all this leaves me to believe that i have been carrying a lot of baggage,whether how i felt as a child, felt when i was beatten up,felt at a loss,,,,,that deep loss within has only grown into a big giagantic demon within me,,,,"FEAR"! Yes the same fear that keeps me and all of us away from seeing all the beautifull things we have and we are going to recieve as we sail towards the end of our lives.

HELL!!! I dont know what life is and all that academical crap i keep reading day in and day out,,,all i know its our mind.Our mind holds the key to all, whether we are going to be happy or sad.
Its ironic, how we keep working and dreaming of our better future and in all that hula huu,,,, forget about the beautifull memories that are engraved in the past. LOVE,FAMILY,FRIENDS, MONEY, CARREER,,,,,,,,the list will go on,,,,,,where it stops is when we stop to think,wait a minute!!!!EM I HAPPY???? ARE YOU HAPPY????IS EVERY ONE ELSE HAPPY?????
We both know the answer is "NO". Unleash that fear within and lose that baggage, Life is dying to embrace you ,live it full AND make sure to live without "FEAR".